A Nervous Wreck

Well, tomorrow is the day that I'm going to go see my OB/Gyn about the whole not getting pregnant situation, it's driving me crazy thinking about it and I'm soooo nervous. I'm not sure why exactly, maybe because I'm afraid that I'm not going to get the answer that I'm looking for and because I don't know what to expect. And to be honest, I'm not sure what answer I even want to hear. It would be nice to hear that there is something wrong which is why I haven't been able to get pregnant but on the other hand I don't want something to be wrong with me. But I don't want to hear that everything is perfectly fine and there is nothing that can be done except to keep waiting and trying. I think the only thing that I could hear that would make me relieved, calm, feel better about everything would "you're pregnant" but I'm not even going to think of that as a possibility because I know that's not going to happen. Then again, maybe I'm like those women who are pregnant and don't even know it....ya right!! And I'm just going to add that I don't understand how that is even possible!! It would also be nice if he said, here take this or do this and bam it will happen! That's most likely not going to happen either though. And what if something is wrong, how are they going to know that? I guess the only way is to do tests? Maybe I'm not ovulating....but how do they figure that out?! I'm just so confused about it all and don't really know what to expect....which makes me even more confused!! I have a feeling that this is going to be the beginning of a very long, drawn out process.

I just want to say a big thank you to everyone that responded to my last post {either by leaving comments or sending an e-mail...and to the person who sent the email...yes I got it, I just kept forgetting to reply & it really meant a lot to me!! :) } about this situation. It definitely helped me feel like I'm not alone in this & I know that we have lots and lots of support {although I still feel that way at home...guys really are oblivious! The other day Ryan said something about it taking 13 months to finish the basement & I said "well maybe we'll get pregnant now because that's how long it's taken so far". His response "it hasn't been that long". If looks could kill, he would have been dead that instant! And then last night I said something about my doctor's appointment tomorrow and he made a face like he had absolutely no idea what I was talking about....again, he would have been dead if looks could kill!!}