I'm Getting Hangry

The dietbet that I talked about last week started on Monday. Which means that I'm only 4 days in. And on this 4th day I think I might start getting a little hangry. 

{hangry: anger fueled by hunger; a cranky state resulting from a lack of food, especially sweet things}

Surprisingly, this is the first day that I've felt like this. We {Ryan & I, because he decided to do it also} have been eating healthy all week & I haven't even snuck in any "bad" stuff. Which has been fine, I've been sticking to my calories every day & haven't felt like I need more food & haven't hungry at the end of the day. Today however, today I am starving. I ate the same thing breakfast that I've eaten every other day this week and about half an hour later my stomach was craving food. Like I want to stick my face in a jar of peanut butter. mmm....peanut butter. I think I might have a slight obsession with peanut butter. It is just so damn good, like licking the measuring spoon & knife completely clean good. But instead of stuffing my face, I'm going to be a good girl & sit here drinking my water & forcing myself to wait until a reasonable time to scarf down eat my lunch. {which will probably be right after I'm done writing this post.}

On top of being starving today, I am also sore as hell. Started to 30 day shred again with Jillian the other night, somehow I forgot just how much I hate it until the first set of jumping jacks I had to do. The first night I quit at the 3rd set & last night I did all of it. Today, it hurts to move. I cringe even thinking about having to pee or walk or move my legs in general. My arms and shoulders aren't much better. And some how I have to figure out how to get through that agonizing 20 minutes again tonight. Ugh, I hate working out.

A couple of things that I have learned so far this week.

-Ground turkey is actually really good. I'm not a turkey fan. Don't really like it at all, at Thanksgiving that is usually the smallest amount of food on my plate. But I have been using it instead of ground beef this week & I'm kinda digging it. Even if it is kinda high in calories...at least I think it is.

-Drinking 4 bottles of water within a 6 hour time period will make you pee every 30 minutes.

-Quinoa is absolutely disgusting. I had really high hopes for this since every raves about it & it is everywhere, especially when it comes to healthy recipes. Maybe I didn't do it right, I don't know but I made it the other night to have as a side dish with our kabobs, I took one bite & threw the rest of it away. Anyone tried it & liked it? What do I need to do with it to make it taste good? I have a shit ton of it because a bunch of recipes I wanted to try called for it but I don't want to make them if it is going to taste like shit.
A couple of things about quinoa. 1. it says to rinse it before cooking. Ok, no problem right? Wrong, I put the quinoa in a measuring cup, started to put water in it to mix it up & rinse it but it gets all mushy like. WTH? How am I suppose to rinse it if I can't get any of the water back out because it is all sticking together? 2. if it boils over while cooking it makes a huge ass mess, huge! 3. it has a ton of calories...like it's not even worth how many calories it is for the amount you get per serving!

-As much as I want to like vegetables, I just really don't. I was so excited about the kabobs we grilled the other night, took a bite of some of the veggies & was completely disappointed. I still ate them & I ate them again the next day for lunch, which they tasted a little better that time, but I can't just sit & eat veggies & enjoy it.

Tomorrow is fish fry Friday & I have a feeling that Ryan is going to want to go get some. Which means fried everything....I'm kind of looking forward to it & dreading it at the same time. It is going to taste soooo good but then I'm going to have to find the willpower to go back to eating non-fried foods again. 

It's Like Crack

I know that I'm not alone when I say this.....

I am addicted to Netflix. I feel like I should be in a 12 step program or something. Hi, my name is Meagan and I'm addicted to Netflix.

Seriously, it's like crack. Not that I know what crack is actually like because I've never done it but I'm sure that it's practically the same thing. And it's not the movies, because lets be honest, no one watches Netflix for the movies, it's all about the tv shows. I can't tell you how many times I have stayed up to all hours in the night because "the next episode will start in 19 seconds" and if it is going to start for me automatically then why not keep watching? And when you are obsessed with a show you just.can't.stop.watching because you have to know what happens next. And in true addict fashion, I only watch one show at a time, watching every single episode of every single season before moving on to the next show. Well, sometimes I watch two at the same time but one is always a show that I only watch & the other is a show that Ryan & I watch together. Another rule of being a Netflix addict, whenever new episodes come available that you have been waiting for, you automatically watch those no matter what show you are currently watching. All of the new episodes. Once completed you can return to whatever you are currently watching. For example, I was watching Dexter then the new episodes of Breaking Bad were finally available so I immediately stopped Dexter, watched every single Breaking Bad episode (in two nights) then went back to watching Dexter again.

But now I need some help, I just finished a show and now I need recommendations on what to watch next! Off the top of my head here is what I've watched so far:

Dexter

Sons of Anarchy

Pretty Little Liars

One Tree Hill

Breaking Bad

Orange is the New Black

House of Cards {currently watching this one but not in love with it}

Psych

The Lying Game

So, what have you watched? What do I need to watch that I haven't already?! Are you an addict like me?! Someone tell me I'm not alone.

Weekend Wrap Up

Oh hey, it's Monday again, anyone else draggin because of the time change? It usually doesn't affect me too much but trust me when I say that I did not want to get out of bed this morning, then again I struggle with that every morning. Plus, today is the day that the dietbet starts so I'm cutting calories like crazy & trying to eat as clean as possible so it's very likely that that has something to do with wanting to just be able to crawl back into bad and hide under the blankets.

Back to the weekend wrap up huh? My weekends always start on Thursdays since I don't work on Fridays so we'll start there.

My boss was out & about running errands on Thursday & came back to the office with a little treat for me & the boys. Two chocolate, a carrot cake & a spiced cake cupcakes. OMG they were delicious!

Side note, Keegan was eating the carrot cake one when he said that there was lettuce in it. I laughed then told him that it was carrots, not lettuce and he said "there's carrots in this??". Um ya bud, it is carrot cake! Ended the night with margs & nachos, great start to the weekend!

Friday Ryan & I went out to eat for my birthday. If you are local to me you HAVE to try Gianinos in SoCo if you have never been. It is seriously to die for! I highly recommend the Sicilian Steak, it's breaded on the outside then grilled with a garlic butter sauce and I always get portabello's on top. And their house salad, to die for. And yes, I ate a steak on a Friday during lent. I've done worse things! ;) After dinner we decided to just head home & actually be able to sit on the couch & watch tv, something that wasn't cartoons or power rangers. I also tried to teach Ryan how to take a selfie {he actually asked me what that meant the other day, I just stared at him like he was out of his mind}.

 

 Saturday was a lazy kind of day. Laid around, took a nap, ate entirely too much junk. Oh and I picked up my new lace shorts from STS. I got the black & I'm pretty sure I need the mint now. Seriously in love with them, even if Ryan said that they look like something you would mop the floor with {said the guy who didn't know what a selfie was}. 

Sunday was shopping & getting ready for the week. I gotta say, turning 29 wasn't too terribly bad I got some pretty great gifts! 

My mom knows me so well, a new coach purse & coffee!

Ryan cheated & combined my birthday gift with my Valentine's & anniversary gifts but I'm not really complaining at all! Not only did I finally get a right hand ring {that I've been asking for for about 3 years} but I got two! He also surprised me with a gift card to use for some new perfume because I was complaining that I was almost out.

While out shopping we decided to pick up one of these babies. Actually, it's because we saw the infomercial on Saturday morning & Ryan decided we should get it because apparently he's going to eat healthy with me now. So far I've only made one drink {a meal replacement}, 1 serving of chocolate protein powder, 1 banana, 1 tbsp peanut butter & 1.5 cups of almond milk. Think I might add some ice next time just to make it cold, it was a little on the warm side but so so good! Have any good recipes you recommend?! I'm new to this whole thing but you better believe I've already searched pinterest! And where do I find flax seeds at?!

Give Me That Money Honey

With my birthday coming up {on Sunday in case you were wondering} I'm really starting to feel down on myself. I'm not one of those people who embraces getting older, I'm just not. And the fact that I will be 29 makes it even worse. Just thinking about this being the last year in my 20's makes me break out in hives. 

I mean how can I be this close to being 30 already?! I don't feel like I should be close to turning 30. In fact I was telling Ryan the other day that I feel like I should still be like 25 or 26. Why? I have no idea. 

Maybe it's because I'm not exactly where I thought I would be by this time my in life.

Maybe it's because I don't feel like a grown up.

Maybe I'm just in denial.
Maybe it's because I'm not comfortable in my own body.

 Maybe it's a combination of all of them.

I've been thinking about it and it is time for me to make a change and become happy with myself. Being 29 is going to be the year that I get back to running/working out, eating healthy and finally reaching my goal when I first started on the whole lose the baby weight thing. I got really close to it at one point. Then I stopped running, then I slowly started to eat whatever the hell I wanted to again....then some weight came back on and my new "skinny" clothes were getting tight. 

I have tried to start over again, do good for a couple of days then right back to stuffing my face with anything & everything. Then my birthday started getting closer and I was like well I'm not going to start now, I'm going to enjoy my birthday! So, next Monday is the official start over day. Just one problem, I lack the motivation to stay with it & have no accountability to keep me going.

That is where DietBet comes into play. I've heard of it & have seen people talk about it on blogs & Instagram but I've never tried it & I'm preparing to no longer be a dietbetter virgin. Darci over at StronglyFeminine is hosting a dietbet that starts on Monday & I'm hoping that this will be just what I need to stay on track. The dietbet lasts for 4 weeks with a $25 pay in. The goal is to lose 4% of your body weight in those 4 weeks with checking in periodically & at the end of the 4 weeks whoever has reached their goal will split the pot! What better motivation is there than winning some money?! Looking for an extra push to stay on track & lose a couple of pounds?! Join the dietbet, we can help keep each other on track! The pot is up to $450 right now! Click HERE to join! It's time to feel good & look good in my clothes...and to have the confidence to work those bikinis in my drawer this summer!

But for the time being, I'm going to continue to eat & feel like crap, including a huge plate of nachos & a pitcher of margs tonight & out tomorrow for my birthday.  Oh, and I'm going to buy myself a new digital scale. Thinking it's time to get out of the stone age with our old analog scale.